it adds together

So it adds together: all the pain, all the hurt~
Whenever you have a death or a loss of any kind it brings back the hurt and the pain of anything else that you have lost before.  In my case, In 2002 I lost my mom.  I didn't loose her, God called her home.  She was blessed enough to go be with Him.  In 2011, I lost my son, Again I didn't loose him, He was blessed enough to go be with God. 
It hurts though, I have no words today but it hurts.  It is deep and hard and I am without the ability to share words.