Monday, January 4, 2016


Its 2016 and I should be thinking of all the new and exciting things that are coming our way.  I should be remembering all of the amazing things that this past year had for us.  Truth is I am hopeful; I am thankful that I am promised by God that He will never leave me nor forsake me (Hebrews 13:5).  I am thankful that I am God’s child, that he chose me and that he loves me (2Corinthians 6:18).  I am thankful for trials that have reminded me that being in the fire refines us and makes us stronger and purer (1 Peter 1:7).

Truth is 2015 was a continuation of trials that have reminded me that we are called to help, called to love and called to do all that we can do for those around us.  I can say sometimes a drink is all we can afford but can change a life.  I can say sometimes we have a second for a text and that text helps bring a smile to a face.  I can say that sometimes time is more valuable that an amount of money.  I am blessed to have people in my life that have poured into me and helped me remembering in the storms there are rainbows. 

I am a different person now than I was 5 years ago and because of that I am going to strive hard to be the light that people may need, I am going to try to love all that I can love and I am going to try to be a positive difference in those that I come in contact with.  I want to be real though. 

See I know that sometimes you don’t know what is going on unless someone tells you, I know that sometimes you may be trying to take it second by second because literally looking a minute ahead is too long.  I am here to say that you are not alone.   You are never alone, have the courage to speak up.  Have the guts to ask for help, to ask for a second of someone’s time, to ask for a drink, a laugh, a hug.  Share a smile and say Thank you. 

December 2015 was rough for me, it was hard faces battles that I have seen before with different faces, it was hard to realize that I each step had to be taken at by itself, one at time.  It was filled with illness and death.  It was filled with reminders that life has changed.  I won’t lie and say that I understand the plan or that I am okay with the plan.  I won’t lie and say that the waves of grief and pain don’t hit hard at times.  I will say I am blessed, I have a loving husband and son.  I have loving in-laws and family that walk the world for me.  I have extended family who loves me. 

So what do I want in 2016… I want to walk tall, support those that need it, make sure no one ever feels alone, be a light for God and show His love to others, and I want to smile when all I feel like I can do is cry.  Why smile? Cause I know I am blessed and have a lot to be thankful for