11 Months, Today is 11 months and
so I am praying that I can start to get things together to take to the
hospital. The pain is VERY VERY real and I am praying that this will make
someone else’s pain a tad easier. I know
that the way I hurt isn’t the way the next one will hurt but I know that I
lived a life that no one should have to and it ended far before we were ready
for it too. 11 months seems like a
breath then I am reminded that Zach has now been dead longer than I was able to
carry him inside of me. I am reminded
that he is now dead longer than the number of days that he was inpatient for
2011. I am reminded that these days will
add up and will continue to grow and one day he will be dead on earth longer
than he was alive on Earth.
Zach was perfect and we let him do
all the things that we could but we also spent lots of time in the hospital and
making things better. Today I was taking
care of a little boy that was about the same age as Zach, he had what we think
was an allergic reaction, I didn’t hesitate and I went back into medical momma
mode. I miss it, I miss hugging on Zach,
talking to him, loving on him and taking care of him medically, I had a closeness
to Zach that I miss. I still wake up in
the middle of the night thinking that I need to do medications or that I need
to check the pump that is beeping. I
still have moments in the day when I think that I have to check for an
appointment that I can’t miss or that I need to check to see if he is breathing.
The children that we are collecting
for through Remembering Zachary deserve to have days, months and years outside
the hospital but they are instead laying in a hospital bed with parents looking
on wondering what the next things that they are going to be robbed of. They wonder if they are going to have another
day of school, a full night of sleep, a day without things going “wrong”. They wonder if they have the procedure done
on their child that they need to if they will wake up again, if it is worth
it.
11 Months ago, we were staring
lovingly at our precious boy who smiled and loved everyone, He was amazing and wonderful. He had mito but Mito didn’t have him. He struggled as Mito robbed his body little
by little of the things that he needed to live and to cope. We were robbed little by little of the time
that we were could spend with him and the things that we could do. Zach’s body gave up, Zach gave up. The week before Zach died we had a conversation
with Zach, he asked us if Buddy could go to see “Jsus” (Jesus) with him, I told
him absolutely and that Buddy was his. WE
loved on Zachary and Buddy....we gave medications to them and made them
comfortable. 11 Months ago today Zach
and Buddy were blessed and welcomed into Heaven to spend time with Jesus. Yesterday I had tears in my eyes missing him
and my mother and I suddenly thought yes but Zach is hugging my mom right now,
they aren’t alone and neither am I.
Please consider donating to help us
take things to CHOA Scottish Rite, please help us touch lives that are
desperatly needing some smiles in their lives right now. Please help us bring smiles to children and
tears to parents as they see their children enjoying themselves. It all matters, everything no matter what, no
matter how small or how silly matters.
Items and ideas:
Items and ideas:
-hotwheels, cars, trucks, other
vehicles of any size
-babies or other dolls
-markers all sizes and types
-paper: copy paper, construction paper of all sizes
-notebooks
-new dress up clothes (boys and girls)
-new brightly colored pillowcases
-books for all ages
-DVDs rating pg and under
-balls
-games for all ages
-stickers
-coloring books
-play dough sets and just dough
-pens, pencils and other writing instruments
-store bought prepackaged snacks
-iTunes gift cards
-visa gift cards
In honor of Buddy Zach’s friend for life.. There is a group online that is making them with build a bear animals. It isn’t buddy but for another child it would be a friend going through the same thing. We would like to help other families through this as well.
Please contact them at: myminibuddy@gmail.com. You can donate to them through paypal myminibuddy@gmail.com Any amount of money will help, I am not sure how much it costs but including shipping is probably close to 30 dollars.
Please make sure to let them know you are donating in Zachary Moody’s honor. We want to try to get a picture of all of them to save
-babies or other dolls
-markers all sizes and types
-paper: copy paper, construction paper of all sizes
-notebooks
-new dress up clothes (boys and girls)
-new brightly colored pillowcases
-books for all ages
-DVDs rating pg and under
-balls
-games for all ages
-stickers
-coloring books
-play dough sets and just dough
-pens, pencils and other writing instruments
-store bought prepackaged snacks
-iTunes gift cards
-visa gift cards
In honor of Buddy Zach’s friend for life.. There is a group online that is making them with build a bear animals. It isn’t buddy but for another child it would be a friend going through the same thing. We would like to help other families through this as well.
Please contact them at: myminibuddy@gmail.com. You can donate to them through paypal myminibuddy@gmail.com Any amount of money will help, I am not sure how much it costs but including shipping is probably close to 30 dollars.
Please make sure to let them know you are donating in Zachary Moody’s honor. We want to try to get a picture of all of them to save
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