Friday, July 29, 2011


When I started this back I wondered "what am I going to write about?" but truth be told I can ramble all day long if I were to sit here and just type.  Today's thought is FAITH FULL, yes I know that I wrote that differently than you expected but I did for a reason.  Lots of people have Faith when they are going through a hard situation, however, when the good times or the easy times are occurring they don't have faith.  So while I am walking through a darker time in my life I just can't imagine not having FAITH. I want to strive to have Faith all the time, in every situation.  For me I want and am striving to have Faith in Jesus and in God, not in the situation, in a person or anything else.

Faith, the word changes it meaning depending on your age and your situation.  To some it is simply will this chair hold me? Will I be able to see my friend tonight? For some the questions will be different.   Will I have enough money? Will I really have someone who will help me? Will I have to go through this alone?  Will this really work out? Going through the past 4 years I have learned to have faith is one thing, to really hold on to it and exercise it is another.  I can pull verse after verse after verse that will show you that God is here that He is faithful and that He knows what is doing but I want to take a sec and be even more honest than that.

I have to have FAITH that:
  • I will wake up after attempting to sleep for a night and that I will have gotten enough sleep for that day to take care of the things that I need to take care of.  For those that don't know I am averaging 4 hours of sleep a night.  My brain decides that it doesn't want to turn off which has caused me to be up at hours that I would much much rather sleep.
  • I will have people around me that will care about me
  • I will get through this step by step.  Now this is one of those things that mean different things in different situations.  I am learning that sometimes step by step, sec by sec can be too much.  There are instances where that sec is overwhelming and seems like you can't breath much less do something.
  • while the walls fall, they come crashing down.  That I will make it through and that I will in fact be stronger.  That I have to be more transparent, that being weak and having problems dealing with things is a normal occurrence.  Honestly we all have things that overwhelm us, right, so if that is the case I can do this.  I can be honest enough to say that I am having issues.
I have learned that God does amazing things and while the situations seem overwhelming and that there might not be a positive thing that can come out of it, that I am going to come through stronger.  There are several songs that are out now that have phrases, lines, in them that are encouraging to me.  That I can hold on and know that it will be okay. " You give me peace when the walls come crashing down" okay, check yep walls come crashing down.  "What if there is healing in my tears?" Yep, again check tears are there. "To infinity and beyond" okay so not a song but a cartoon character's line.  In this case I have heard this a million times.  Zach just had gotten into Buzz Lightyear, it was the 1st thing that he was in that was him, not anyone else's opinion.  He is with God forever, for infinity... To have the faith of a child.

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