Faith, the word changes it meaning depending on your age and your situation. To some it is simply will this chair hold me? Will I be able to see my friend tonight? For some the questions will be different. Will I have enough money? Will I really have someone who will help me? Will I have to go through this alone? Will this really work out? Going through the past 4 years I have learned to have faith is one thing, to really hold on to it and exercise it is another. I can pull verse after verse after verse that will show you that God is here that He is faithful and that He knows what is doing but I want to take a sec and be even more honest than that.
I have to have FAITH that:
- I will wake up after attempting to sleep for a night and that I will have gotten enough sleep for that day to take care of the things that I need to take care of. For those that don't know I am averaging 4 hours of sleep a night. My brain decides that it doesn't want to turn off which has caused me to be up at hours that I would much much rather sleep.
- I will have people around me that will care about me
- I will get through this step by step. Now this is one of those things that mean different things in different situations. I am learning that sometimes step by step, sec by sec can be too much. There are instances where that sec is overwhelming and seems like you can't breath much less do something.
- while the walls fall, they come crashing down. That I will make it through and that I will in fact be stronger. That I have to be more transparent, that being weak and having problems dealing with things is a normal occurrence. Honestly we all have things that overwhelm us, right, so if that is the case I can do this. I can be honest enough to say that I am having issues.